Addictions

I'm Sending A Lifeboat.

I'm Sending A Lifeboat.

Nobody takes their first drink with the intent to become an alcoholic. The desire to throw away your future career, your future marriage, or your future family doesn’t cross your mind as the bottle hits your lips for the first time.

You’ve been told that it’s fun. It’s a part of growing up. It’s just what people do.

The Ripple Effect.

The Ripple Effect.

When a stone is thrown into the water, the ripple begins. If anything is near the rock when it breaks the surface, it’s effected. This is not something that is mind blowing.

We’ve all done it. We grab a rock. We throw it in the water. We watch the splash. We see the ripple.

You Can't Outrun Your Shadow.

You Can't Outrun Your Shadow.

I never intended to hurt Shayla that day. We had been through too much for me to hurt her like I had before. We had overcome the unthinkable in a marriage.

We had overcome an affair just 16 months prior. I never wanted to see her hurt like that again.

4018 Days of Sobriety.

4018 Days of Sobriety.

Today will always be a day of celebration. January 30th will forever by the day that my life changed. The day that my marriage changed. The day that generations would be changed.

January 30th, 2008 is the day that I took my last drink of alcohol. 

The Silent Drug.

The Silent Drug.

I DON'T DRINK.

It’s only three words but with these few words, a line is drawn in the sand.

You are not asking the question, “you don’t drink what?”. You know exactly what I mean when I say these three words.

The Other Side Of An Addiction.

The Other Side Of An Addiction.

Evenings out with friends were always enjoyable, fun, and filled with laughter. The night might have included our favorite karaoke bar, restaurant, or just a night alone. Wherever we were, alcohol was involved.

God, where are you in THIS?

God, where are you in THIS?

I recently spent a week in Las Vegas for a conference I was attending. This was my third time in Vegas. The first time was in 2008 for a marathon. I said that I would never go back. We went back in 2010 for another marathon (long story but it had something to do with my severe OCD).

I'm an ALCOHOLIC. But today, I'm 8 years SOBER.

I'm an ALCOHOLIC. But today, I'm 8 years SOBER.

I'm an alcoholic. I remember my first drink. It was the spring of 1998. I have always been a rule follower so I never drank alcohol before I was 21. But I was now 21 and what the heck; I will give it a try. It was a Coors Light.